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Yesterday at church, the Arenots (spelling?) spoke about a few things. Carol in particular told us the story of her raging mother, about how Carol was beaten by the person in her life whom is supposed to love her the most. And then she spoke about forgiveness. Listening to her story and to some other examples (forgiving someone who had beaten her her entire life, a man who raped his son’s three year old child), that kind of forgiveness seemed unthinkable. But if you cannot forgive someone who has wronged you- you in turn can never be set free. It’s funny, though, that that message should find me yesterday, because today I was faced with the deepest betrayal I have ever experienced. Someone who I trusted my entire heart with hurt me beyond conceivability. And the only reason that I am physically able to sit in this chair and form these sentences on this old, white keyboard is forgiveness. Yes, I’m hurt. Yes, I’m mad. Yes, it makes me want to hold back in every friendship and relationship I get into in the future. But along with this person, I’m letting all of those things go. I think that right now, that’s all that I have to do. I trust God to take care of the rest.
Other than that, I wish the rain would stop. But I’m thankful for it at the same time because gross weather makes me want to sit inside and study, which is exactly what I have to do tonight.
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